#8...i think

i am totally not doing as good at this as i had hoped. maybe after the holidays it will be a little easier for me. ken and i were talking tonight and it really made me start thinking. i was not happy in virginia. most everyone that knows me knows this. i joined a mommy group there in the hopes of meeting friends. ok that is a lie. i joined the group because a friend made me join with her LOL but then i thought ok, what the hey. maybe i can meet some great friends. i actually thought i had. then tonight ken says to me, when is the last time that any of them contacted you or made any effort at all to stay in touch with you. he is absolufreakinglutley right!!!!!!!! yeah there are a few people from there that do seem to kinda make an effort. there were a couple of people that i made "friends" with that i thought were really close friends and we would be friends for life. yeah i dont know the last time i heard from either one of them, even when i try to make the effort and contact them. i used to try sending texts and stuff to keep in touch, but it didnt seem to work. heck, when i got my new phone on sunday i didnt even put their numbers into it. i figure i am not even going to bother wasting my time anymore. i am past even caring. i guess maybe i am writing this as my own little piece of closure. i am not going to let it bother me. i will move on and not look back. sianara LOL